I accidentally bumped into my ex-bf pic while browsing into friend's social network.
It's been a while since i saw him. He's still still single but not available. It hit me suddenly, does he know i'm getting married? And if he does, how does it feel?
Suddenly i have this strange kind of feeling. I don't know how to describe it. It's not like i-want-you-back or i-miss-you. Neither haha-padan muka-aku kahwin dulu. The feeling is like....
urgh, so hard to explain!
I just stare at his picture. No expression.. numb.
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They said "Good endings make good beginnings".
I read in Mars & Venus on a Date, When we end a relationship feeling either resentful or guilty, it is much harder to move on to find a person who is right for you. Quite often, when a relationship ends, we may feel angry that our partner let us down or didn't fullfill our expectations. Women most commonly feel that they gave a lot to relationship and they didn't get what they needed in return. As a result, they feel resentful. Men, on the other hand, tend to feel more quilt. They feel bad that the relationship didn't turn out well and guilty if their partner felt unfullfilled. It can also be the other way around. In either case, the result is the same. We end a relationship with a closed heart.
....And now, it is 4 more weeks before my big day :) hehehe... I can't be more happy than this. I guess all the strange feeling is because i'm questioning myself. How can i love this guy 5 years ago and now feel nothing for him?
The answer?
I have opened my heart :)
